This is my last official week of Maternity Leave. I have such mixed emotions as this time comes to a close. I have loved being home with baby Greer. She is so sweet, and we have bonded and gotten to know each other pretty well. I’ve been able to spend so much quality time with my 2 year old, Thayer. He has changed so much over the last 10 weeks. He speaks like an adult now. He is starting to lose that baby quality, and is so much more a little boy. He and I are tighter than ever. He wants Mommy for pretty much everything. As sweet as all of this is…..
I’m losing my marbles.
I give so much credit to Stay-at-Home Mommas…. so much! How do you not lose your effing minds??! In the time it took to write this post, I had to comfort a crying baby about 6 times, change a diaper, and whip out a boob. I find myself talking baby talk all day. Don’t even get me started on Kid TV shows. Lets just say Sesame Street ain’t what it used to be. I’m referring to myself as Mommy and in the third person…i.e. “Mommy has to go potty now.” I have a husband who travels every week, leaving me on my own. Motherhood can be such a lonely experience, and staying home can certainly perpetuate that.
I am fortunate enough to have lots of Mommy friends and people who love me enough to come rescue me when I’m going a little nuts. Sometimes you just need someone else to witness your crazy existence to validate you. Without these awesome people, I would have ended up on medication, and not the fun kind.
So, as sad as I am to leave a breastfed baby, who hates a bottle, might I add… I can’t wait to go to work! I can’t wait to be around adults, have grown up conversations not revolving around poop. Work is easy, home is hard.
Look out ladies, I’m coming back and we have lots of catching up to do!!! I promise not to talk about poop. See you soon!